Reflections

The last few weeks have been a trial for me. Devotions have been non-existent, prayer only in times of desperate need, and encouragement to others sparse to say the least. I have been grumpy, irritable, graceless, lustful, prideful, and extremely selfish. I am what I have always been, a sinner. Sometimes it is more apparent to me than other times, but that does not change the consistency with which I "exchange the truth of God for a lie."

This morning when I woke, a strange feeling came over me that is difficult to describe. Remorse, Joy, awakening, sadness... a range of emotions that can only be explained by one singular factor. The Grace of God. How do I go from weeks of sinful selfish behavior to the all-of-a-sudden desire to please God, read His Word and sanctify my soul? This can only be due to the work of another. I am brought to tears at the thought of what God has done for me.

Why? Why save me?  Even in my regenerated state I struggle with sin.  What could possibly cause God to posses a disease such as myself?

God has done far more for me than cure me of a disease, he has clothed me in his glory and righteousness.  He has held me in His arms like Father holds his foolish child,  always comforting, always gracious, always loving.  

What a day it will be to look my Father in the eyes and thank Him for his grace.  I will run to Him and cry because for once, I won't care what other people think.  I will bow before him in worship because I finally desire to bring Him glory for every remaining second of eternity.  Can you imagine it?  

What a glorious work God has done in a sinners like you and me!  Rejoice!  Soli  Deo Gloria.

-Kyle-